Softening into the joyful moments in our lives requires vulnerability. – Brené Brown, Daring Greatly
I have begun to practice relaxing into happiness. I have noticed in the past a nervousness that comes with goodness. A sense of responsibility that I’d better keep doing whatever it was I’d been doing so that this lasts. And then there’s the angst that I don’t know what it was I had been doing in the first place, so I’m not sure how to maintain it exactly.
A few years ago, I started looking with the Compulsion Inquiry* to see if there was a command to maintain the state I was in. I’d drop in the body and look at the anxious feelings and find out, directly, if there was a command there. Did the energy literally tell me I had to keep being happy? What a bully that energy would have been! But it didn’t actually say that. There was no command to be found, and I was simply free to be happy AND relaxed at the same time. Imagine that!
Knowing that I have started to feel really ungrounded when things have been going well in the past, and knowing I can tend to go that way (out of the body, not sleeping so well, eventually falling apart over it all), I’ve started to rest more in the feelings when they come.
I center and ground myself and breathe. I feel my feet on the floor. I scan the body for sensations. And I open my arms, relax, and declare:
I am always increasing my capacity for happiness and good in my life.
I normalize the miracles and goodness.
I might sometimes add details like love, wealth, health, peace, etc. Whatever is relevant in the moment. I relax into it. I do this both at random times and at times when there are specific exciting happy feelings coming through.
I learned from my brilliant friend, Kat Dawes, founder of and Promoter of the Present Moment at Nowism, to prepare my nervous system ahead of time for the exciting things to come. In those situations in the past where the momentum was all around me but I couldn’t handle the success yet, this was the issue. My body/mind wasn’t ready. Now I intentionally relax into it more and more. And it does take this vulnerability Brené Brown talks about. We have to be present and attuned to what’s happening for us so that we can grow gently along with it and so that we can be gentle with our sweet human systems along the way.
Happiness doesn’t have to be stressful, nor does it have to be manic. Peace can prevail, even in the most exciting times.
Remember when Oprah called Eckhart Tolle to tell him that she’d chosen A New Earth as her book club choice, and, not only that, but that she wanted to do a twelve week series with him? And he simply said, in his Eckhart way, “Yes . . . “? (Okay, pretend you can hear his non-attached voice here.) Heck, I still get excited and love to share good news. I’m just getting used to it, and it doesn’t surprise me as much anymore.
I’m up to things that are stretching me, and I intend to continue to relax into this ease and greatness. Resting with my happiness, relaxing into the vulnerability and authenticity of the moment, trusting rest all the way . . . When I remember, of course. 🙂 And of course, rest never goes anywhere. We can touch it any time, no matter how exciting.
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